Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Hit and Miss !!!

Yesterday I was reading Chetan Bagat's new book "2 States". I got interested when i read a paragraph. It was a letter from Ananya to Krish (Hero and Heroine in the play), telling she miss him.

Once i finished reading the book that thoughts kept haunting me too. What all things i MISS till date.

I MISS all my 7 friends whom i started my game with world of letters.
I MISS the boarding school and the evening basketball games.
I MISS the holidays (feast days) @ Boarding where we played from morning to evening.
I MISS our Youth Festivals , Science Exhibitions
I MISS our Parichamuttu and State Fest's.
I MISS my first college, class bunking and movies.
I MISS College elections, victory days.
I MISS girl friends @ College :P
I MISS our Badminton/ Cricket in the eve before our exams.
I MISS our small talks in LAB till 10.30 PM.
I MISS our late night talks
I MISS plays with security guys for plucking mangoes from campus.


Will i be able to do these things again? Never ever.

I MISS everything !!!

Who is a Priest?

One of my friend(I Should say my Tutor, my Best friend, etc etc), who is a priest asked me the titled question. I thought i will give him a small answer. But when i finished writing it came like a blog. I am posting the same.

I consider there are different types of call from God. Each and every man is called for something in this world. Some people works as Doctors, some as lawyers. Each and every one is asked to do his duty for the betterment of life assigned here. So that everyone can lead a good life. We are supposed to keep our block of brick in the building so that for the coming generation can reach a shelter.

But i feel "A CALL for priesthood" is entirely different from everything. First he should have a sense to hear about the call. He should decipher it properly. It is a gift from God himself. He wont give this call to everyone. But to someone, whom he thinks will be good enough to spend the entire life time with him.

A man who is waiting for a call or himself is a priest should take care of 3 things.

1. A mind prepared for the certain duties and liabilities which he is going to do at his priesthood.
2. He should have a special sense to hear the Call from God.
3. He should be accepted by the church and vise versa.


Our Forefathers teach us that, we the mankind is created by LORD to replace one set of angels who were thrown out from heaven. So Priest should be a person who lives a lifetime, as an example for others. He should have mindset prepared for that. Once he enters the missionary he is considered as dead to this world. To be more clear, even though he live in this world, he should be with God, praying for the children of God, like angels do. More over its a martyrdom for Lord. He should live like as a versatile who is always there to help others in any other field and to uplift them in the name of Lord.

A Dayaroyo is someone who plays more important job than any other priests. He should always consider 3 things in his life.

1. Celibacy.
2. Obidence.
3. Bravery.

I don't think, i have to explain the first topic. Next point is, He should be obident to God himself, and to the church. Noah and his family were the only loyal and obedient subjects to the legal power: they alone were saved.

He should be brave: Holy Confession is one the most important sacrament. A priest should be brave enough to teach the confessor about his sins and ask him to leave evil deeds. If he is a coward to ask the confessor about the same, then the priest himself is doing a Sin.

Most important thing a priest should practice in his life is to be humble. "Humble yourselves in the presence of the Lord and He will exalt you.."

Sunday, December 6, 2009

What we learn from Saints ?

Yesterday i bought a book about St. Leopold. It solved so many questions in my mind. I thought why dont I write the summary of what I learned, as a blog. Here you go !!!

Saints are light of God. They show us the path to God. It gives us a feeling that, God is walking with us in this century also. More than that, they tell us, if we walk three more steps we can walk aside with them. The most important thing in our life is to lead a good life and set an example for others.

When we start our studies, our aim to finish it and get a good job. Once we are done with our studies we will be in most important phase of our life. "Youth". As Picasso tells "It takes a long time to become young."

Youth - It is the most joyful phase of life. We enter that stage with lots of expectations and hopes. The period which we are strong, beautiful, and efficient. The period which we build our future plans. Holy Bible states, if we decide something in that period it will affect our whole life.


Some body gets Call From God at this stage. It is not easy to get a call from him at the period of youth. A Call comprises of three major components.

1. One should have a mind prepared for the certain duties and liabilities which he is going to
do at this preist hood.
2. He should have a special sense to hear the Call.
3. The church should accept him.

Call from God is not in return of anything. Its a special gift from God. He will call them who are dedicated.

Most of us are thankful to those who help us from financial tragedies. If we know how to treat them, then why we forget to thank those who pray for us. Those who uplift us spiritually.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Why is it so?

Everything was going on fine. Tides playing hide and seek with the shores. It was calm. Never experienced a rough one. Suddenly the clouds changed. Sky became dark. We never knew this would happen in a nick of time.

It was a usual call to home. Whenever something new happens in my life, i will dial 3 (speed dial set to my Dad's no.) and talk. But that Saturday when i dialed, i could feel lots of noise from the background. I guessed he is not in home, but traveling in bus. I asked him the reason. They were leaving to native. I asked the matter, and was not convinced by his answer.

After disconnecting the call i could smell something fishy. But my little bro changed me mind. He was leaving to Singapore for a new project. It was his last week end @ Bangalore for him. So we rushed to purchase so many things.

At night, our plan was to go to Commercial street and finish the purchase. We met Big B and Chechi there. He had a call from native, and i guessed my mom is also there. Aunty was enquiring him about some doctors. I felt something fishy. I asked him what happened, and he didnt tell. I called my Mom and asked about the same. She told, she is not well, and going to meet a doctor by next day. I called up Dad. He gave me a clear picture. Mom is having a small lump. So they just wanted to do a routine checkup.

If something goes out of control or out of way, i used to get a spark. I got a sign after hearing that too. I never felt Mom will fall sick. They went for the checkup next day, and was referred to other clinic. I heard that news by late night. Without wasting anytime booked the ticket to native and i started.

After the scan report, it was confirmed. We are asked to go to RCC for further treatment. It was a blessing that she found it in the early stages. But i was dumbfounded. Even if it was in a primary stage, i lost all my control. I never expected something like this turn our family upside down.

It was after 3 days we reached RCC, TVM. So in those days have got enough information. We have to see so many people struggling there. Babies, Children, aged people. Just dont have to loose hope.

Whenever we crossed the entrance, the story was same. So many kids with mask were coming out. Aged person, who cant even walk is coming in wheel chairs. Some ambulances going out (prob with someone who already passed away).

It was a dreadful situation for everyone. I tried hard to control myself, so that i can show a smiling face to my mom, and crack some jokes. The main thing everyone notices is, there is no discrimination.

From Baby to GrandPa
From Christian to Hindu,
From Allah to Jesus
From Male to Female

Everyone sitting under one roof. They all are common.

Whenever i am there these days, One question comes to my mind.

Why so many religions,
Why so many Gods,
Why so many Discriminations.

After all its only for one human being.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Troubles in Life?

Yesterday i got a mail from my friend. Usually i don't read too long mails. But i read that mail. It was really inspirational.

A great tennis star, was affected with cancer. So many fans wrote to him asking, WHY YOU? He replied them, 5,00,000 people love tennis. 50,000 plays it, 5,000 reach upto grand slam, Only 2 reach finals, and 1 gets the crown. When i was holding the crown i never asked GOD "WHY I".

There are so many people who are in trouble. We face so many problems in our daily life. Why do we suffer? Are they the trials given by God cos we have committed sins? But Why God allows these trials and hardships?

I was just trying to find a solution from Holy Bible.

In Job 14:1 it is told "Man who is born of woman is of few days and full of trouble".

Our life in this earth is full of troubles. By experience we come to know that Job's verses are true. Troubles concern us, not just because hardship itself is a burden, but also because affliction can lead to spiritual temptations. We may be tempted to feel that our trials justify committing sin. Once we face a trouble, or hardship we blame God for giving us the same. We will loose our faith, or we will begin to doubt His mercy. Bible states that also. Job's wife said, "Curse God and die" (Job 2:9).

According to experts, there are so many reasons not just one reason why people suffer.

1. Sometimes people suffer as a result of their sins

1 Chron. 10:13,14 :- King Saul lived a miserable life and eventually was slain because he had rebelled against God.

Matthew 27:3-5 :- Judas killed himself because he had betrayed Jesus.

There can be so many instances which clarify this thoughts. Thieves get hurt, drunkards fall sick. But this is not the reason we get hardships.

2. Sometimes innocent people suffer as a result of other people's sins.

Incidents like when innocent bystander killed by a drunken driver or when a thief violently attacks his victims.

1 Peter 2:19-23 :-Jesus is an example of one who committed no sin at all, yet He was persecuted and killed by wicked men. So we may follow His example and suffer, not for our faults, but when we do good.

John 15:18-20 :- The treatment Jesus received should warn us of the treatment we can expect. The world hated Him and persecuted Him, and it will do the same to His servants.

2 Corinthians 11:23-26 - Paul's life shows that Jesus' followers truly often are persecuted.

2 Timothy 3:10-12 - All who live godly in Christ shall suffer persecution.

There are so many verses in Bible, which claims the above topic.

3. All people suffer as a result of Adam and Eve's sin.

The third reason often told, we suffer because we are children of Adam and Eve. In particular, it is because of Adam and Eve, we got death?

Gen. 3:16-19 - God originally placed Adam and Eve in a state of bliss with no problems of any kind. But He warned them of the consequences of sin. When they sinned anyway, He decreed they would endure pain, suffering, hardship, and eventual death.

This does not mean as some teach, that people today are born guilty of Adam's sin or will be eternally punished for it (Ezek. 18:20; 2 Cor. 5:10)

4. Some suffering is simply a temptation from Satan.

Job 1:1-2:10 - States that Job's suffering was a temptation from Satan. He hoped that, because he was suffering, Job would turn away from God.

2 Corinthians 12:7-10 - To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

If we truly believe in God, he will be with us, he will hold us from all the suffering. And he will give us good results.

"It is good for me that I have been afflicted" (Psa. 119:71). Usually when we suffer we can only see the problems involved. Surely if we commit sin as a result, then the suffering is harmful. But if we remain faithful, there are favorable results that can occur.

1 Peter 1:6,7 - As gold is purified by passing through fire, so the genuineness of our faith is proved by trials.

In a summary we can tell

1. Suffering Gives Us Opportunity to Prove Our Commitment to God.
2. Suffering Causes Spiritual Growth.
3. Suffering Keeps Us Humble and Dependent on God.

Everyone can write what ever they feels. We are not Jesus Christ, nor Job, nor David. But we are his children. So he himself through Holy Bible conveys some messages to us.

The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
(Psalm 27:1)

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
(Psalm 23:4-6)

When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up. Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
(Psalm 27:10,14)

Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.
(Psalm 37:24)


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Eternal Journey!

Last week i was going to my native. Before I start my journey, i used to check my luggage, as everyone does. But the three main things i used to check are
a. Purse
b. Mobile
c. Drinking water

Some random thoughts came to my mind, while i was in bus. I wrote those snippets into my mobile notes.

1.Why I am bothered about my Purse?
2. Why I am bothered about my Mobile?
3. And Why I am bothered about Drinking water.

As it is an over night journey, if I loose my water bottle, there is no chance to get water at mid night. If i loose my purse, i wont be able to buy something to eat. And most important, if i loose my mobile, i cant call anyone if something bad happened.

But at the worse case if i loose my mobile, I cant lent from some one, so as water, and money.

These days, i happen to hear so many deaths of my relatives. So many near ones passed away. I dont no whether its a weird thought. According to Christian faith, once we die, we will start our Eternal Journey. I have read and heard from others that once we leave this world, both angels and evil spirits will come and fight for our soul. For our great fore father, Moses, it happened. What will happen to my case? or your case?

If i want to leave Kerala this friday, i will book my ticket atleast by monday, and make sure, i have got a good bus, and a comfortable seat. But i don't think we can book a ticket for our eternal journey. Nor we can't try for a postponement. It is fixed.

So what are you planning to carry? We will be alone in the journey. Once i was making a video i wanted a quote to put as last message. One of my friend gave me a quote.

"Three things will accompany us to our grave.
One is our relative,
Another is our wealth.
But only thing that will accompany us is our Virtues."

N.B : I have heard that Alexander the Great asked his servants to make two holes in his coffin and put his hands through that to outside. So that everyone can see he is not taking anything from this world.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Letter to Parents!

I was down with Chicken pox and fever for about a week. Really away from everything. No access to net, not to phone (I rarely used). Lived in an isolated room, of course bath attached one, no need to go out for anything. After the toughest week in my life, I am totally blank. What I was doing? What was my routine? What all projects I left in the middle? No idea !!!

Just to get back, I started to make a video. Wanted to check out my creativity is still there or pox took that too :) After the video, second venture, my blogging. In the past one week I was not at all thinking about any subjects. Usually when I am down with fever I used to think a lot and come up with something great. Last time, it was typhoid, when I was doing my Last semester Post Graduation. Made a very good video which we presented in college, and I revised the version, presented in my office too. Got some prizes for the same. :) But this time, oops sorry…


Anyway! I had some questions from my younger age. WHO AM I? WHY I AM HERE? I am baptized as a Christian, but during my college times, may be for sometime, I was not so close with them. I was with Hindus. I was with Muslims. I was with Buddhists. I was with some of the GURU’s. Even I was with Communists. But No body gave me the answer.


Now I realize with some eternal bliss and blessing from God, he made me here, to be a son of two lovely bodies which came to earth. My Dad, and my Mom. When we watch a movie, I have heard my friends used to tell, If my Dad was like that, my Mom was like that… But why I haven’t thought like that! At my pre mature period of life, I was away from my parents. My brother was a linkage between us. He used to advice me. I got irritated with him. I used to ask him, why he always support them? But after the so called period, I realized that, they are just great. My Dad, never wanted we to follow some paths. If I love something, He will do a research on that, come with some books, reference materials, websites and make me read those, and get prepare for the same. At each time intervals, when we wanted a big jump, he used to get so many options before us and wanted us to select the same. I remember it was a 486 Computer, (if I write the configuration, you will be surprised, 2 GB HDD, BW monitor, 133 MHZ or so) he bought us when I was at 8 or so. We started off with games, then once we are familiar with Keyboard, then internet. I think it was at 95-96. Internet was not so common at that time, in our village. Not even computer. I haven’t seen him browsing with computers, not even my mom. But they managed to get what ever we should be part of the technological world.


My Mom, who always stood for love. I have never seen someone who has ever loved like this. She never hates anyone. She belives GOD IS LOVE. A true Christian who loves to obey her savior and follow his teachings. I don’t know what made me wrote a blog about my parents. I am not sure, whether they will read this one day. Still…


I was never worried for Death. When someone dies Mom used to cry a lot sitting in the bed. Who ever dies, I believed that we will be the same. My family, my relatives, my friends, they wont die J But all of a sudden, it was my grand mom (Mom’sMom) passed away. It was a shock for all of us. I knew she was old, still I believed that she will be like that, till end of the world. Only Birthdays are for me, and I get aged. Not my parents or my relatives. I wanted them to be the in the same age. Now I understand. If we are Born, we have to Die. So before each leaf is falling from the tree, I have to repay something. For allowing me to sit under the shadows, enjoy the fruits, enjoy the wind, and to take rest below it.


But how?

Monday, September 21, 2009

Who will Cry when you Die?




Sorry guys, i was away for sometime... These days i was really thinking a topic to write with. So many ideas came to my mind, but i was not feeling to write it. Sometimes it happens. If i don't feel like blogging, i will make a video. I am done with the small video about Money (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6j9M_dQPR2k).

Yesterday when i went for shopping got interested once i saw the above book. "Who will cry when you Die?". This was a topic which i used to think a lot for long time. Once i started, i felt its almost the same thoughts what i had.

He says "When i was growing up my father said something to me I will never forget. 'Son when you were born, you cried while the world rejoiced. Life your life in such a way that when you die the world cries while you rejoice.' We live in an age when we have forgotten what life is all about."

I was chatting with a friend yesterday. I wanted a quote to put in the last page of Video. He told me an interesting one. "Three things will come to your Grave. One is your relative, other one is your wealth, and the one which stays with you is your virtues."

We are not sure, when the call will come. Before that we have to complete so many things.

“Time is free, but it's priceless.
You can't own it, but you can use it.
You can't keep it, but you can spend it.
Once you've lost it you can never get it back.”

So start your day now. Enjoy the fullest. Each second is precious. Be a part of the fast moving World :)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Live in present !!!

Yesterday i was all alone at home. Was browsing through the channels. Atlast i stopped at a religious channel - SHALOM. A priest was talking about this topic. I was thinking about the same subject for about a month now.

Usually when we talk to someone, when we watch television, when we have food, when we pray, why so many thoughts are coming to our mind. Why we are not able to concentrate on the thing which we do???

My small attempt to throw some light on this topic.

The priest orated a small story. I didn't feel it as a story, may be something which we all does... There is a guy who wants to start work at 9.30 in the morning. Have to catch the bus at 8.30 from home. So while having his breakfast he will be thinking about the bus, which is supposed to come at 8.30. Everyday he will be repeating the same thing. He is not enjoying the food which he is eating. Moreover he is eating the bus :)

But why? He is not living in the present. If he is, then will be enjoying the food. How good it is. Whether the salt and masala's are of correct proportion and all. But here, he is trying to eat the bus. So gradually having breakfast is being a habbit for him.

“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” – Buddha

Then a question comes to our mind. What you mean by Living in Present. It means that your awareness is completely centered on the here and now. You are not worrying about the future or thinking about the past. When you live in the present, you are living where life is happening. You might have done so many things, which you don't want to remember in past. But still you think about it. The past and future are illusions, they don’t exist. As the saying goes “tomorrow never comes”. Tomorrow is only a concept, tomorrow is always waiting to come. So why should you worry about yesterday and Tomorrow.

“If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is.” -Unknown

Not only will living in the present have a dramatic effect on your emotional well-being, but it can also impact your physical health. It’s long been known that the amount of mental stress you carry can have a detrimental impact on your health. If you’re living in the present, you’re living in acceptance. You’re accepting life as it is now, not as how you wish it would have been. When you’re living in acceptance, you realize everything is complete as it is. You can forgive yourself for the mistakes you’ve made, and you can have peace in your heart knowing that everything that should happen will.

So try to live in present, and experience how life takes you.
Just try to remember something before you close this window,

1. If you are talking to some one, then there is no one other than you and that person.
2. If you are eating, just think of your food, and you :)
3. If you watch Television, try to find the person in the TV talking to you alone.
4. If you Pray, just think there is no one other than YOU and YOUR CREATOR.

So that your prayers will be heard and you will have more blessing from him.. May you have a good time ahead !!!




Sunday, July 26, 2009

A day @ Summanahalli

Its after a long time I am writing a blog. Yesterday something touched my mind. I thought I will write it. It all happened when our Church Youth planned to have a charity visit to a Re habitation center. I also planned to join them. On Saturday itself Achan (our Parish Priest) gave us an idea, what that center is all about. A center of Lepor patients, Blind, disabled, HIV/ AIDs infected and much more.

After the Holy Mass, we started to Summanahalli at 11.00 AM. It was an hour and half journey from our church. Thats center is a Christian organization and some Catholic priests are the office bearers. The priests there, welcomed us, and told us about them. They used to conduct survey’s and medical check ups in and around Summanahalli and find out the in mates. At the very early stage if you are able to find leper patients the more faster they will get cured. Once they are cured, the center will educate them, give them a job, try to find a suitable partner, and allow them to live a usual life.

He introduced a guy who is perfectly alright now. He is a very good artist, now doing his LLB. He showed us some of his painting and other art works.



I was really moved. Time was almost 1.30 then, we started to have lunch with the in mates. Most of them were from different places of India. So they speak many languages. So that was a barrier for me. Some of our friends who knew to speak Kannada, interacted with them, while others served the food for them. There were many destitute s, who lost their limbs, and several other organs.



Some of them were struggling to use spoons as they lost their fingers. I could see some blind ppl. I thought I have to thank God for giving me these gifts, for what I am.

I was going through each table. At one table I saw some young guys having food. All the people went with the plates and got the food from the main table. But these guys are not helping any one. So I thought they are the staff. As we are serving they don't have any work, they are also having their lunch. But, something was wrong in my mind. May be because they are not comparable with the others who are disabled. They are not blind, they have fingers, they have arms, and moreover a well built body. Anyway I left the table, and be the part of the team, who was serving the food.

Everyone finished their lunch, and was going out. The guys who were sitting round the table, whom i noticed, were also coming out. May be i can call that moment as the TIME I GOT A NEW MESSAGE. The time, which I felt so ashamed too.

“I saw the young guys coming out walking with their hands. The don’t have legs. Or may be the legs are not good enough to walk. They walk using their hands.” I was dumbfounded for sometime.

Somebody from my inner heart was telling me. "You should never misjudge people like this. God is great. He gifted you everything".

After the visit while we were returning I had only one prayer for them,

“May God give them...

For every storm a rainbow,

for every tear a smile,

for every care a promise

and a blessing in each trial.

For every problem life sends,

for every sigh a sweet song

and an answer for each prayer.”






Friday, May 8, 2009

Life Time Award???

In my work place every month we have some awards among teams. We can nominate anyone for this. But before nomination, there is a questionnaire to ask ourselves.

1. What is the impact to the organization?
2. Is this part of this person’s job description?
3. Does it help his/her immediate group?
4. Does it help cross functional groups?
5. Does it help Company internally?
6. Does it help Company externally?
7. Does it save money?
8. Does it save time?
9. Is it a one-time accomplishment with temporary benefit or is something that will ease the everyday process for one or more people over the long term?

In this world every one has his own life. I would like to re write some of the questions in the questionnaire and try to correlate it to our life.

1. Is this a part of this person’s life description?

2. What is his life to the world?

3. Does it help others?

4. Does it save time?


I will try to give my own descriptions for each questions.

  1. Everyone who lives in this earth is having certain common goals. They educate themselves, job, marry, kids, make money etc. I feel this as a cycle. Each and every human being is trying hard to complete this cycle. We don’t have time to spare.
  2. I believe we should do something which impacts this world. Each and every minute a new life is planted in this world. They too go through the present cycle. If so, what impact it makes to the world.
  3. Life is always bonded to something or someone. We can’t live without the help of others. We started our life with help of someone. Still living with the help of other. Life is a dark tunnel. If we want to proceed further, we should ask the guy who stands next to us. We are so good in getting help… but giving them back???
  4. Time - the most precious thing. Whoever you are, what ever you are, you have only 86400 seconds or 1440 minutes or 24 hours. We can’t give a second to anyone, so that he can have 25 hours a day.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Lets everyone take his own......if he is still alive.......

I was away for more than a month now... I don't no why... May be i was bit busy with my photography. I bought a new SLR camera last month, so was just playing around with that. Doing Project 365, each picture a day. I was told like it keeps on improving our creativity, and our photography skills.

I was too much into flickr these days. My Team lead was asking me, how many pictures will i see a day.. May be 200-300 is the answer :-) Anyway, today i saw a picture taken by my flickr friend. That gave me a topic to think. The picture was all about some old things. An old hammer. Some old clocks. The next frame, i loved a lot. It was some rings. It should be told as a pile of rings. The title he has given is Lets everyone take his own......if he is still alive....... From the description i found that those were something used by some people who died.

Are they still alive some where???
Will they be able to come back???

So many unanswered, dumb questions having only one blank answer.

Will there be someone to read these blogs, see the pictures which we took once we take rest after our long journey. ..

Hope someone will try to explore these stuff !!!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Thirikada (Script)

So many friends told me THIRAKADA is a nice movie.. It has a resemblance to life of great actress Sreevidhya, and Kamalhasan. I came to know that she died with cancer.

After a long time, yesterday I got that film. We had no electricty at home... So was forced to see the film in the mean time. That made me a real thought!!! “Renjith” the film director has done an excellent job.

The film, which has Prithviraj playing Akbar Ahmed, a young director who decides to make a film on the life and love of actress Malavika, who had disappeared years back. After a long journey, he finds out the great actress in a hospital bed with a pathetic situation. Once she comes to the screen, the viewers also gets a shock. Such a drastic change to human face.

I couldn take it as one of the Malayalam movies. There are lots of real incidents like this happening in our world. Very recently Jade goody. Look at her picture.

She was a hot news in many of the dailys before some months. After Shipa Shetty’s Big Brother Show she got famous all over India. After a long gap she is back again. See the picture down.


We can’t think about this severe change. Its not film.. Its reality.. In climax, Akki, tells to his lover. If it’s a film, through the script we knows, what is the climax, whether it’s a comedy, or tragedy? But in real life, so many actors, and actresses, without the help of a good script, or with the help of a Director, plays something !!!

Life takes us through so many phases… Who knows what will happen to us in the very next minute. The message Renjith gives as Heroine is very notable. “The world will still go on, a day after a day. But I will not be there, once I am dead”

Thursday, March 19, 2009

People I Know – 1 - One!!!

When I was coming from office, I just thought, how many people I know in this world. In my orkut I have more than 700 contacts. In facebook I have another 200, yahoo IM more 70, and flickr around 150. Some may be common. But still... Family members are excluded from this count. So many friends, who studied with me from my class 1 whom I could not list either in orkut or facebook. There is an option in every social networking site, to write a testimonial to them. From today I will randomly select one and write about someone whom I know in this small world.

Last day I had a chat with one of my colleague in EMC. His name is Gireesh Ranjan Bhat. That small chat made me think a lot about my perceptions and insights. Girish is a person who can be called someone down to earth. Its almost one and half years we became friends. I have never seen someone like this. So simple, creative, humble. If you have any problem, just go to him, he will be having a good solution for that. He is just amazing. There are so many people which we come across. But I really consider as a blessing to know and be a friend of this guy.

While we were talking, he told “Success” in life can be defined on different basis. A guy may be successful in one field, but he may be a failure in some other. Because success itself have different definitions. One thing I am sure, this guy will be a successful in all ventures. May God bless him.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

In a Nut Shell !!!

These days, my favorite site is “flickr.com”. I could see good descriptions to each picture. For self portraits, they express some random facts about them. It’s really hard to find some good and interesting facts about yourself.

I am giving a try to list out 16 random facts about me…

  1. First and most important thing, I love photography, more over it’s a passion now.
  2. I love to blog.
  3. I love making new friends.
  4. I am addicted to orkut these days.
  5. Flickr is the second website I love, first is google, of course.
  6. I love acting, directing.
  7. I hate betrayers.
  8. Most negative thing in me is trusting others too much.
  9. Takes time to adapt, but once it is done, then you will feel I am so fast.
  10. I love to talk and learn new things.
  11. My Mobile, Digi Cam & laptop – three things which I cant live without.
  12. I love people who talks a lot.
  13. I don’t have any special menu, simply love to eat everything which I feel interested.
  14. I love to sit, walk lonely and may be write some good poems too.
  15. I care friends, and want to be with them all time.
  16. I fear what others think about me, so please tell me what you feel about this blog too.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

My Half !!!

These days I am getting lots of email forwards from my juniors. Most of them started their last semester Project, and is away from Amrita. So it’s a honey moon period for them. I remember a mail, which had a story... I thought I will share that.

One day a lady was waiting in the airport. It was told the plane will get delayed by some more time. So she went to the shop and bought some biscuits. Came to the chair and sat there. In the mean she saw the guy sitting beside her started eating the biscuits. She got really annoyed. But didn’t tell anything. She also took a biscuit. He didnt stop it till the last biscuit. She thought the guy will allow her to have that. But he took the biscuit without any hesitation made into half, give her a piece. This was more than enough. She got really angry. But didnt respond then... After some time she was searching something in the bag, and found a biscuit packet.

This is how this world is... We assume everything is ours. We owe the whole world. I love US President Obama's speeches. He always tells, we should start the "Change" now, so that our children will have a better future.

Monday, March 9, 2009

A 2 Z … is that what I know?

Don’t get amazed by the title. You will figure it out by the end. I don’t know how to describe this blog. As one of my thought, or a question???

My world in the very first day was a small hospital room, where my mom gave birth to me. The day light which was coming out through the window is or was my first shower of sun bath. After some days I reached my home, at Kottayam (a small town in Gods own country). I consider the very first wind, carrying the smell of rubber sheets as my first odor of this world (as my house is situated in middle of a rubber estate J ). I don’t really remember whether my first taste was of candy, or salty.

Then life took me to the world of letters. It was ‘A’ who welcomed me. English, Math, Science, History etc etc, told me so many things, which I understood as this world. But in real life, I only knew the way to school and back to my home. All others where just mysteries.

I moved from School to College and from the small town to City. I saw different people, learned so many things. Read a lot about this beautiful world, still all where just mysteries, other than my route from college to my native home.

I was told that now I am Post Graduated. But in real life!!! When will I get a post graduation? I feel like, I am still struggling to pronounce the very first letter ‘A’.

World is big, so as the history. We can learn so many things from books, but after some time we will feel like mysteries. We meet so many people. Learn a about their life. We feel like they are also like stories. Entirely new and different stories from others. That is also just a mystery.

So it’s ‘A’ to ‘Z’ what we learn in life???

Thursday, February 26, 2009

THE CURIOUS CASE of BENJAMIN BUTTON!!

I was really sad these days. Thinking a lot about life. From my previous blog, you will know where my mind is wandering. What life is all about, a series of intersecting incidents, out of any ones control!!!

Today one of my friend shared the titled film. I was hearing that name for the first time. She teased me a lot, as that was an Oscar Nominated film, and I didn’t even knew that. So I thought of watching that. Once I reached home, my first job was to watch that movie. I really felt its worth sharing.

Last week one of my friend was asking me, why do people blog. There are lots of things happen in our daily life. Why to waste time, writing it and ask some others to read that, by wasting their time too. May you be can find an answer in this blog.

Coming back to the movie…It begins with a story of a blind man who is busy making a clock. In the mean course of time, he looses his son, who was in army. After much hard work, that man completes his big clock. It was a clock, which runs backward. He was having a solid reason to make that. Let him tell in his reason “May all the children who died in the war. Let my son also come back.”

The Hero in the movie, Benjamin is a special character, who born up with some disability... He looks like an old man. When years pass by, he is getting younger. He could see all his loved ones, depart from life, and he is getting younger day by day… His wife, gives birth to a baby girl. One fine day, he leaves the baby and mother, as she cannot take care of two babies at a time... And atlast he dies in Diapers.

I loved a reel in that movie. Daisy (the heroine) met up an accident. It’s well taken. A lady comes out from a hotel room, for shopping. However she forgot her coat. She came back to hotel room took her coat, and reached the street. But she missed the taxi. In the mean time, Daisy is dancing. The lady got into the same taxi after sometime, and went for shopping. The shopkeeper girls, delays the packing. She broke up with her boy friend last night and she is not in a good mood. In the mean time, Daisy finishes her shower. The lady gets back to car and moves. Daisy is coming outside, but her friend’s shoe lace broke. Some how they fix it and reaches the street, the car where the lady was coming hits her. Benjamin thinks about that incident. If the lady was cautious enough to carry her coat, she might have got the taxi, and if the shop keeper girl was happy with her boy friend, then she would have packed it perfectly. Atlast if Daisy’s friend wouldn’t have broke her shoe lace, then Daisy would have been safely crossed the road.

In our real life also, we too come across similar things. Because of our carelessness something might have went wrong in this beautiful world. Time is precious. If you plan to do something, do it right away without any lack of care. You may never get back the same year, same month, same day, same hour, same minute, and even same second…

The film ends by some saying,

Some people are born to sit by a river,

Some get struck by lightening,

Some have an ear of music,

Some are artists,

Some Swim,

Some know Shakespeare,

Some are mothers,

And some people, dance.

I and you are also assigned to play a role in this world. I dont have much to leave...

I will go out of this world, as the same way I came in, alone and with nothing.

All I have is my STORY…

Monday, February 23, 2009

Rest in Peace !!!

Last week my Laptop got virus infected. I was not able to connect to Internet this week end. Today morning itself, I called up IT people to repair. Usually when I reach office, I always check all the mails, flickr, orkut, gmail chat etc etc.
But today my entire time table was washed away by the great Virus King. Some how in the after noon, I managed to log into gmail chat. A Shocking news was waiting for me. One of my friend, passed away in the previous week. I couldn realize that. Last week only I chatted with him in orkut. I was asking him about his new hair style.

I rushed into his orkut profile, and found so many condolence messages in the scrap book. I couldn control myself. How can that happen??? Why God is so cruel these days????
I couldn see him in gmail chat for some days, so I was planning to shoot a mail or a scrap. But !!!
I am realizing the meaning of Life now. We used to write in the Slam books “Life is like an Ice cream, enjoy it before melts”. Now I know, what it really means.
His orkut status message for the last time is “am living through each one of u....”. Don’t know what made him to write like that. Google may delete the ID after some days. But I am sure, he can never be erased from our mind.
Life is too short; we don’t know when we will get our call. I saw a writing in one of my friend’s orkut picture. “Each person who crossed me taught me what life is... I was taught a father's love & a mother's warmth, A sister's companionship & a brother's charm. A friend's broken heart which needed some love, The hunger of a stray dog, the pain of a dove.”
He also taught me so many things.. Please pray to Lord Almighty, so tat his soul rests in peace!!!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

A Dreadful Dream !!!

I used to write blogs on my personal life. But this time I thought why cant I think different. It’s just because of some sort of fear that’s coming from my bottom mind.

Last week I visited my home at Kerala. I was coming back from shop at noon time. It was really hot. I really felt like sun is shining directly to my forehead (My friends excuse, as you know the reason :-p ). We have to cross a river; very recently a bridge got constructed. But I couldn see any water in that canal. It’s dried up everywhere; even wells are having very less water!!! It’s just beginning of Feb and I have never experienced this type of drought recently.

Today I saw a documentary about River Ganga in NDTV. The holy river is having very less water now. If this is the condition, we won’t be able to perform religious rituals in Ganga in near future.

The scientists found out the ozone layer depletion are creating these issues especially in Kerala. I have studied about these when I was in high school. But then my aim was to get a car with AC and work in a big company having centralized AC. So I don’t have to be concerned about Sun. I considered the group trying to create awareness as “People out of mind”.

But now a dreadful dream is disturbing me.

  1. If ELECTRICITY is not there?
  2. If we don’t have WATER to drink?

We can run from SUN, but we can’t from NATURE. We live here. We are dependents of this great treasure.

Our ancestors used to sleep under trees, may be they felt the real AC effect there. They used to drink cold water from the streams, as they provided a cooling effect just like a fridge and of course the rivers were not polluted like these days.

But now where are those trees, where are those streams and rivers. They are transformed to flats, and big buildings. In the coming years our life is going to be really tougher.

At least we can start now, so that our children can have a better life.

Nature is a precious, Save it, don't Destroy it !!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Puppet Show !!!

I had a chance to watch a puppet show last week. So I thought its worth sharing through blog. Before I proceed I will give you a brief intro about puppets.

A puppet is an inanimated object or representational figure animated by a puppter. It is usually (but by no means always) a depiction of a human character and is used in puppetry, a play or presentation that is a very ancient form of theatre. There are many different varieties of puppets, and they are made of a wide range of materials, depending on their form and intended use.

Okay, coming back. The way my life these days, is really hectic. My daylight hours start around 6.30 – 7.00. By 7.45 will start to office. In the gap of 30 minutes while I travel, I call some of my friends in random, talk to them, otherwise listen to some music, or I will take my laptop and start writing something for the next blog. Usually office timings end by 6.15. But these days, I swear I have never seen those evenings. I will be leaving by around 10.00 or so from office. Reach home after 45 minutes. Flattttt on the bed.

Earth revolves round the sun, giving us seconds, minutes, hours, days and finally a year. (I stopped in a year, because I was told in my school days that earth revolves round the sun in 365 days and we call it a year). I also experience like revolving around something, because my life is also a cycle.

I find a real similarity between those puppets and the so called “Human Beings”.

1. Puppets play before a live audience. But the HUMAN PUPPETS performs for no one.

2. Puppets can’t speak, but we can speak.

3. Some one dubs for them, so that audience can be aware of the play. But we have our own voice, but no one listens.

As Oscar Wilde wrote, “There are many advantages in puppets. They never argue. They have no crude views about art. They have no private lives.” May be it’s the only difference between PUPPETS and HUMAN PUPPETS.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Life @ IF – ELSE loop…

Today I was talking to my friend. A new member is going to join his family. So I told him, that we can expect a party in the near future. He started with IF…


Before I started the chat I was coding a segment with IF-ELSE loop. When I was in college I never thought IF-ELSE will be one of the main thing, for coding. But in real life also its playing an important role. So why cant I write a blog about that.


Our Life starts with an IF- Else… (I wont be writing the ELSE part. That’s just self explanatory)

IF : The new born baby is a boy,

ELSE:

IF : The child will get an admission in good school . (These days for nursery admission itself, we have to register)

ELSE:

IF : He will get good marks in SSLC?

ELSE:

IF: Will he get a good rank in entrance?

ELSE:

IF : What about the placement, an MNC?

ELSE:

IF: A good girl to marry???

ELSE:

IF: New Child boy/ girl?

ELSE

May be by the time, the thinker will be old, and he wont have enough time to think about himself…


The cycle goes into an infinite loop. But no one is thinking about this, and then try to put a BREAK statement so that it will come out of the loop. This is the loop of life, the infinite loop....

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Why life is like this ????

My grandmom’s sister passed away yesterday (4/2/09). I was not able to work properly for the entire day. She was so close to us. It was like a tour for us, the kids, when we used to visit her house. I have never seen her sitting some where idle. She used to run fast from one room to other, talking a lot without keeping the visitor bored, and prepares lots of stuff to eat. I loved to walk with Uncle, around the countryside, to the small hill nearby, and to the ponds.

But last time, when I visited her, she was so tired. I couldn't even imagine, she will be so feeble, She even cant walk, or talk. She was paralyzed.

Why life is like this??? I was thinking a lot. When we are born to this new world, GOD gives us lots of people to love, to care. By the time goes on, we will become so close to them. Then he calls them back, leaving us alone. All alone in this world. I have never thought of death, and the concerns after one is moved from this world. What is there to think about that and talk a lot. Its clear. If we are born, we have to die. Each day how many people die. But it was my grandmom (Mom’s mom)s death made me realize that!!!!

When I hear about death these days, I am getting shocked. How the family is going to accept this. There will be a real vacuum. What I feel the only thing we can do is to console them, be with them, and pray for them.

Of all the wonders that I yet have heard,

It seems to me most strange that men should fear;

Seeing that death, a necessary end,

Will come when it will come.” -- William Shakespeare

Monday, February 2, 2009

3 in 3 !!!

Last weekend I went to Kodungallur, where I spent my 3 great years of graduation. I reached there on Saturday 10.30 A.M. Was supposed to reach there by 7.30 or so. I was late by around 3 hours. So I had to change my plans accordingly. Sunday by 3 P.M.. I have to leave from home. Divided my time into equal shares so that I can enjoy the lasting hours..

I planned 3 hours to spend with my friend. I was having 2 best friends during my graduation. One left to Dubai for job. One is still here. So I called up Anvar and charted out our plans for 3 hours. He told, we will recall memories of 3 years in 3 hours. And that’s how the blog name “3 in 3”.

He came with the bike on right time. Every eve after the class we will have tuition. I don’t know whether it can be called as tuition. (We started it only when we were in final year). So we have rented a bike for last couple of months, so that we can reach there immediately after our college timing, and get back home soon. There is a lake nearby. So after the class, we three used to go there and sit for sometime. And when the sky getting dark we will move from there to Shihab (my 2nd friends house). We will leave him there, have some cup of coffee and leave to my home. During exam time, we will dedicate full time to TUITION. But the real scenario is different. We will go to Shihab’s house (it’s an old and small house) will sit at the veranda, and chat. His Mom, used to get us coffee, tea in equal intervals. In between the so called study session, we will take some breaks, roam through the countryside and will have mangoes, and other stuffs. His cousins used to cut the mangoes for us.

The life has taken each of us into different alleyways. Shihab’s old house is renovating into a big one. It was after such a long time, we are there. We spend sometime there. Planned to go to the riverside, also. But we didn’t realize how fast the time is flying. The sky was getting darker. So we bid farewell to them, and started through the old dark road to my house. I was riding the bike after a long time, Anvar was endlessly talking about our old days, when we used to ride through that places.

Sun has submerged into the sea. Night is spreading up so fast. But even in the darkness memories wont leave you. 

Saturday, January 24, 2009

How to make Fried Rice !!!

Last week I was having breakfast @ office, with a friend. She asked me, whether I cook anything at home.. That reminded me of preparing Fried Rice once during a week end.

Fried rice, is a classic Chinese comfort dish. It's believed that fried rice (Chao Fan) originated in the city of Yangzhou in eastern Jiangsu province. Made with barbecued pork, shrimp and spring onions. That’s history. I downloaded the recipe and saw some videos in youtube so that I can make a good lunch for my brothers.

Basic Ingredients

# 2 green onions, finely chopped

# 2 large eggs

# 1 teaspoon salt

# Pepper to taste

# 3 tablespoons oil for stir-frying, or as needed

# 4 cups previously cooked rice,

I started with the adding 1 tablespoon oil, swirled it so that the bottom of the cooker is coated. Added the rice to it. Stir-fry for 2 - 3 minutes, until the rice got heated, and blah blah blah...

After the prescribed time period, I opened the cooker with doubtful mind. But the smell came out was so delicious. Both my brothers jumped to kitchen and looked inside. It was a funny moment. All three heads, into one cooker. But we could see some more water there. So kept it for 5 more minutes.

By the time, I got a call from a friend. He called me up for Lunch outside. So with hesitation, I started there. All the way I was thinking about my fried rice. I had lunch from outside, and came back home by evening.

None of them was talking to me. I went to kitchen to see something is left, so that I can taste it. I couldn believe my eyes. There was no Fried Rice. But some PAYASAM…

Monday, January 19, 2009

“The reward of true love is not true love”

Yesterday I got the return ticket to Bangalore from Cochin. The bus was at 8.30 P.M. Reached EKM by 6.00 P.M. I thought I will have my dinner there itself, and spend some time roaming in the city. I saw one Handi Crafts exhibition. So washed-out some time there. Then I went to Marine Drive. It was almost 7.00 P.M. The evening breeze was trying to murmur something to my ears. I was enjoying the silence around. There was no other sound other than that of lagoons.

If you have read my previous blogs, then you will be sure, what is my next step J As always when I am alone, my mind roves through past memories. I don’t know why today it stopped in my school days. Last week I have completed the book, (sorry I don’t remember the book name). May be because of that.



It was a story of a feminist doctor. She loved someone so deeply, in her higher secondary schools days. May be we can call as a crush, as most of us expect the same thing those days. But “The reward of true love is not true love”. He dies in early age itself leaving his diary for her. That deepens her love. The author tries to explain each and every moment in their school days.

I was also in a boarding for my high school days. We had a very good bond among ourselves. But as the time plays hide and seek, I also lost the contacts. I don’t know where all my friends are. Some I found through orkut. Still More. Thanks to orkut J

Sometime memories are like sweet candies and some other time, it makes our eyes wet. The breeze was trying to wake me up. I checked my watch, and found its time to move. I could see some tourist boats in a distant view. But the songs were playing so loud enough. It was “Mere Sapnoke Rani Kab Ayegi Thuuu”. It reminder me of another incident. But there is no time.. I have to leave. May be I will write later about that. Till then Bye...

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sunday Morning..

This Sunday morning was little different from the other Sundays. I couldn go to church. It was a must for us. The relief & blessing after the Holy Mass is unexplainable.


I have missed couple of Sundays, due to several exams. This time, it was for my brother. He came to Bangalore on Saturday for an entrance Test. We reached the test center on time. I could see so many candidates waiting there. The scene was different here. The “Doctors” who saves many lives, who relieves our pains, waiting eagerly to get the big gate to open. My brother also started with them. I have to wait for him till 01.30 P.M. That too about 4.5 Hours.

I found out a cool place to sit. Many dry leaves where scattered their. So I took the camera & started trying to make a new canvas.

I saw a newspaper lying there. Took a sheet and sat on that and started reading the rest. It was a silent place. I was away from the noisy city ambiance for some time. I could feel the same silence of my native their. Some children were playing with their cycles. We used to play like that in our childhood days. I wish I was also at the age of 10. So that I can also play with them.He came after his exams by 01.15 P.M.

I left the paper there and we started back home. Life plays hide and seek with us. We have to leave so many things n our way and rush to the future. I am also running leaving all my good childhood memories.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Paint Ball @ Yuyutsa

Last month, we had a Team outing from EMC. We went to Paint Ball Area (www.yuyutsa.com). Some of my friends were asking me about that. So I thought I will write something in the blog.

One day when I arrived at my cubicle, there was a personal invitation. It was to the Paint ball Arena. I was hearing that for the first time. I got the video link from the organizers. After seeing the video, I was so eager to go there.

It was a Saturday, and its quite long from our office. So my friend Nishi, told he will take his car and we will go together. We were the first one to reach there. The breakfast was arranged in a resort nearby. Everyone was “ON TIME”… So we started to Arena bit late. By that time, I started taking some pictures. I saw a different type of fruit there. So thought will take a picture and ask my mom regarding that (As she is a Botany Professor I used to make pictures of plants and flowers for her.)



We could see the arena from long distance. I was sort of desperate after seeing that. Because I thought it will be a big ground, and the place where we could see was small. There were huge sand sacks, like a war field.




By the time, there were some other guys from outside, who were preparing to start the game. So we thought of watching their game first, then we will learn about the game. We were spitted into 4 teams. Our team was “D- Dangerous”. Our war cry was “HOODI MANGA (Beat Him)”.

The manager of Arena, spoke about the game and our mission. We will be having a flag in our base. We have to save our flag, in the mean time, we have to kill others (if you hit one bullet you are killed and out of game) and get their flag. We have decided our strategy. Two will be attacking, 5 in middle, and 3 in the base for defense. We got a sample Paint bullet.



We were the second team to get into the war field. The gun is little big. We will be provided a mask and a bullet proof. Each one will be given 10 bullets per game.



Once we got into the field, we knew its going to be tough. Its really difficult to hide next to the sand sack and move from one to another. But we stayed patiently, so the other team make a foul move, and we can hit them.


Our strategy worked out, and we got the highest points and came out first in the tournament. After that we had the lunch, and the review sessions. All jumped into the pool so that they can relax after the so called “WAR”.

It was just a game. If we hit a bullet, nothing will happen, other than getting out of the game. But there are lots of Army men, who sacrifice their life to this Mother India, and for us. Because of their vigilance, we sleep here peacefully. Lets pray for them and those martyrs.

JAI HIND…

Thursday, January 1, 2009

New year and Karting !!!

2008 was so good for me... I completed my studies, got new Job and lots of good things happened... Thank God...

2009, the New Year, New Hopes budding up...



It was the first time, i was going for a New Year Service at Mid night. We started from home by 9.45, and reached church 10.00 P.M. At exact 12.00 AM all the lights were switched off and we were holding candles to attend the most important part of the Holy Mass. It was a great beginning..

Woke up late at the morning. We were planning how to spend the new year day. Anyway having lunch outside was sort of finalized. Then suddenly we thought of searching for the "Karting Arena in Bangalore".. Logged into Google, the mother of Search engines and found out one in RT Nagar. We knew its a long journey from our house, still after seeing the picture and videos we were sort of excited...

Took and Auto from the bus stop. We reached there around 3.30 P.M. The Arena is little big, than what we imagined.



Many guys were waiting for the turn. Some were having the race. I started taking some pics, so that i can share it with my friends.

I thought i will go after my brother finishes his race. So he got the first ticket for 7 laps. It was really cool to watch him race with other guys. We took couple more tickets so that we can race among ourselves.

My car started little bit earlier, so i was leading the race. At some point of time, he crossed me. But some how i managed to win in the end.

We started back home by around 6.00 P.M, had something from McDonald's (can call it as a dinner :-) ) and reached back by around 9.30 P.M.

New Year Day was fun filled with lots of fun...

Anyway Happy New year to you and your family.. May God Bless you and shower his blessings to you..